[ too late, he has already witnessed the surprise — and while he does make a face at that, it's mostly out of embarrassment, because about half of him is saying that he should have fought against it harder, simply out of principle, while the other half thinks he shouldn't have given her cause for surprise, at all... and the end result is this, the awkward way he stares at the floor for a moment before sighing. ]
Let's go before I change my mind, [ he mutters, mostly because if something good comes out of this, it might as well be caitlyn being happy that he's, ugh, taking care of himself or something like that.
and then, because once again his words came out sharper than intended, ] ... I do appreciate your help. And care. Just — [ he waves his hand haphazardly, hoping to indicate something along the lines of if i die here i will come back so what does it really matter, or the last time i tried to do something about my illness it killed a person. ]
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Let's go before I change my mind, [ he mutters, mostly because if something good comes out of this, it might as well be caitlyn being happy that he's, ugh, taking care of himself or something like that.
and then, because once again his words came out sharper than intended, ] ... I do appreciate your help. And care. Just — [ he waves his hand haphazardly, hoping to indicate something along the lines of if i die here i will come back so what does it really matter, or the last time i tried to do something about my illness it killed a person. ]